a lil piece of my story

July 25, 2008 at 5:10 am (Uncategorized)

my father has always been an enigma to me.  a man with many stories.  and many demons.

he grew up in the new orleans.  in a neighborhood that hurricane katrina swept away.  and that no one really plans to rebuild.  he was drafted by the govt for the vietnam war.  when he returned he was involved in the black radical movements in southern california in the 70’s and a student at ucla.

he worked on the mcgovern campaign in washington, dc.  and met my mom.  they married.  moved to northern va.  and had two kids.  the eldest one was yours truly.

in the 80’s (and probably before) he suffered from ptsd.  he swore that the police and the government were after him for his past political activities.  i remember him warning me to not answer the phone.  him hiding in the bedroom drinking mylanta.  he moved to california.  my folks separated.

i remember nights without electricity, mornings without running water.   no car.  walking to the grocery store.  instructed to hide whateva was happening inside our house from the outside world.   barely seeing my mother, she was working so hard to keep everything  stable.

my mother buying birthday gifts claiming my dad had sent them.  but no phone call from him. my mother explaining that he was sick.

i kept my head in books.  loved stories of ‘normal’ families.  my father calling randomly telling me to be careful of the world, cuz the government was out to get us, because of his past, because of his present, because we, his children, were his future.  i was 8, 9, 10, 11 years old. i was scared.

my father was a great story teller.  i believed his stories.  all of the contradictions.  it wasnt till adulthood that i have accepted the contradictions of his personality.  and thus, of mine.  i am his daughter.

when i was a teenager i felt a strong kinship to tupac.  i understood growing up with a parent whose politics could range from radical to regressive, whose soul could be broken and whole at the same time.  both tupac and i grew up in the eighties, under reagan, with parents who had survived war.  and had not had the privilege or the resources to heal from it quickly.  so they found solace in truth and fantasy.  in the cold reality of the streets and a desire to lose themselves inside their own dreams.

some have asked me was my father an activist.  yes.  no.   not in that white sense, when you go to jail because it is a part of the theatre of self-righteousness.  but in that dark sense of trying to save your soul.
i am grateful to my mother who strove through all of this to achieve middle class stability.  and my father who tried to adjust the world to himself.  and then tried to adjust himself to the world.  i remember when i was 17 he said: i used to believe that love made the world go round, and now i believe that money makes the world go round.

every year he gave me a reading list of black radicals and intellectuals that i was supposed to read.  malcolm x before i was 11.  they came before colombus before i was 12 years old.  and when i was 18 he told me that all those black intellectuals were bullshit.

but he was too late.

i couldnt keep riding his merry go round of radical black thought or capitalist black thought.  so i keep my head in the books.  and i walk the streets.  and love what he gave me.

a world where i, with all my contradictions, am possible.


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how i got through high school

July 25, 2008 at 4:37 am (anti-oppression)

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ok yall…a lil piece on white feminists

July 24, 2008 at 9:42 pm (anti-classism, anti-oppression, anti-racism)

from resist racism

we heard it before

racism 101

now i love the site resist racism, especially since they have created a shorthand for racist ish you hear so often that really, you dont feel like going through all the arguments (again!) for why ‘that thing that you said was racist…’

only recently i have realized that white people think that one of the worse things to be called is: racist. i am still not sure why this is. white folks, imho, have never really explained why being called a racist is like so horrible and shuts down the conversation immediately. and we folks of color have to find ways to deal with your racism without calling you a racist, or implying that you are a racist. (but that is for another discussion) and why is the burden on us, to prove that we dont think you are a racist…

this discussion is a lil piece about well…white feminists. and i know some sane white feminists out there. good friends who have my back and will go down in the trenches with me and fight as hard as they can to call out the bullshit that gets passed around as ‘logic’. cause racism is very logical. and it is a logic that is hard to fight. been re-reading toni morrison’s playing in the dark. but just because it is logical, that dont make it right.

and i used to think that organizations that didnt heal from their racism would end up disappearing from the earth like dinosaurs, cause antiracism will win the day, antiracism being evolutionarily advanced and all. but now i am pretty sure that racist organizations are racist because racism is a successful survival technique and if you want your organization (non profit, corporation, etc) to survive try to become as racist as possible. maybe i sound cynical and ‘nihilistic’ but take a look at history…oppressive organizations, nations, etc have a longer survival rate than anti oppressive ones. and i dont think that is just correlation, i think that is causation. but this isnt a post about racist organizations, so i dont want to derail the topic again.

but that is to say that white people know that if you are racist (within boundaries, i mean you cant go yelling nigger in an open theatre, but you can listen to a poc talking about racism and focus on how angry and bitter they sound instead of the content of what they are saying…) that will help them go very far. think about it, if it is a competition and you can prove that poc (because of their anger or lack of experience being white, or whateva) are not qualified to do the job, then you have made the chances of your success much better. that is just capitalism. and playing the game well.

this is a lil piece on white feminists…okay about one particular bratty white feminist. this about a chick who used to be a friend until she ‘discovered her voice’. and turns out that her ‘voice’ is a controlling racist classist silencing kind of voice (and if you are white and trying to figure out, how can i claim to be antiracist and still silence a poc? keep reading and i will give you a step by step guide)…but i got to start at the beginning.

here is the story: she pulled some classic racist, classist shit. and i confronted her about it. i did not do it nicely. i responded to the violence of her racism and classism. and being nice to violence is not effective. one has to push back (even if it is only verbally).

hint: racism and classism are forms of violence. same way as a white person yelling: nigger is a form of violence. and self-defense, while it may be violent, is not morally wrong.

and her response to the self-defense, was, well…classic.

1. she decided to go with: ventriloquy. as in: i have a friend who is less privileged than me who agrees with me

2. then, i got the: you are an angry and violent person

3. then we got the: my defensive responses to you confronting me is not about my privilege

4. also, got to include the: i apologize ‘if you were hurt’. i do not apologize for being racist or classist because i am just a human being and we all make mistakes. and i am working on being anti-racist and anti-classist…and that is all i can do.

dear white folks, please dont do (or say) these things…they are stupid.

but honestly, folks, this post is not even about white feminists…it is about the new anti-racists. she is the ‘evolved’ anti-racists. lets call it anti-racist 2.0. ten years from now people of color are going to be griping and swearing that they ever supported this whole: white anti-racist movement. because it is insiduous.

so let me show you what i am talking about.

1. what is an anti-racist? she reads a few books by people of color. maybe she takes a diversity/anti-racism workshop (hang the diploma on your wall!). she lived a neighborhood with a bunch of brown folks. shes got some friends of color. she has told someone else when they have said something racist. she dated someone of another race. she likes ethnic restaurants. she supports obama. adopt some brown child (or at least play ‘aunti’ to one), join a community/social justice organization with brown folks in it. she traveled to brown countries, join an all-white anti-racist group therapy for her ongoing education. etc. (damn, that is alot of work!)

2. she has made a commitment (maybe even a tshirt or a poster) that she will continue to work on being anti-racist. she recognizes that anti-racism is a life long project. that she will never be perfect at. of course she will make mistakes, but, hey at least she is trying!

3. she does or says something fucking racist as hell. (woops! well, she knew that she was going to make a mistake!)

4. she gets called on it by a person of color. (this is a really important step. if she got called on it by a white person, the rest of these steps will not happen…because she will own up to her wrongness, not feel super-defensive, and want to make sure that she does everything possible to prove to her white friend that she really is anti-racist…we will return to this important difference a little later)***

5. she gets defensive about it. forget everything she learned in anti-racism 101 and just have at it. (i mean come on, it takes alot of work to be an antiracist white person, she had to give up sleeping in on saturday mornings just to make it to that antiracism workshop and all that spicy food gives her heartburn…but she does it anyways, because she is committed!)

6. she calls/emails all her white anti-racist friends (maybe even some friends of color, but probably she will forget to cc them, cause how can you expect her to think properly while getting attacked like this?) tells her side of the story. in the telling, she acknowledges that of course she knows that she is not perfect, and has made a couple of (little) mistakes but dammit, she is trying to be a good person.

she conveniently forgets to mention 70 percent of all the racist shit she did/said. and focuses on that one little comment that she made, that was misinterpreted by the poc, and blown way out of proportion.

7. the other white anti-racist tell her how they have realized that being anti-racist doesnt mean that they have to agree with poc interpretation of everything. and how she needs to stand up for herself. and how feeling guilty is not being anti-racist. and how some poc really are just angry and bitter. and that is not the white anti-racist fault. i mean even bell hooks says that.

the white anti-racists all feel better about their newfound understanding of anti-racism.

8. the white anti-racist friend goes to the person of color and ‘stands up for herself’.

9. the person of color calls her out on all the racist bullshit she said in defense of proving that she was anti-racist.

10. the white person responds by quoting bell hooks (or other person of color) or tim wise (or other white anti-racist person) and gives the poc a lesson on the ‘proper way to communicate her anger’ and how the poc is ‘misdirecting her anger’ and that white person refuses to be ‘talked to in such a disrespectful way’ (never mind all the shite that the white anti-racist has just said…i mean what did the poc expect?) and how the white person is no longer in that ‘immature’ stage of anti-racism where she just apologizes for her racist behaviour/words and asks for how to change herself (cuz some people are just never satisfied)…she has now matured and is ready to ‘stand up for herself’. and poc are no longer going to victimize her by making her deal with poc’s personal issues around blame, and bitterness, and yes anger.

now. this also applies to anti-sexism, anti-classism, anti-heterosexism, anti-ism, etc. some of the words and names change. but the pattern stays the same…poc or working class or woman or queer or whateva it is are no longer going to bully the privileged. because the privileged are have read your analysis, your writers, your struggle, taken it out of context, and can now use it to silence you. or at least educate you on how to be a ‘good oppressed person’. and not one of those intimidating and scary marginalized people.

and this is the new anti-racists, folks. the thing is they become anti-racists so they can look good to other white folks. poc are just the means to an end that does not help us in anyway. they just want to prove to other white folks that they are one of the good white folk.

it is like one white antiracist feminist straight chick told me: why do all those women of color keep stealing the few good conscious white guys out there? and like another anti-racist straight white chick told me: he says he only dates women of color, but i figure, i can convince him im not like those other white girls.

good luck poc.

anti-racists 2.0.

its a brave new world.

or maybe it is just the same old shit.

***my partner just pointed out that there is another possibility at step 4.  that she will tell the white person to shut up, because they are racist too.  like: im not racist, youre the one whos racist, because you are saying that the poc doesnt have power in the situation.  im not racist youre the one whos racist because you are exoticizing the poc.  im not racist, your the one whos racist, because you are just saying im bad because im white, so i have to be wrong in the situation…

wow.  anti-racist white folks are crafty.  like Fox.

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chicago politics and a presidential candidate

July 14, 2008 at 8:37 am (Uncategorized)

so i recently moved to chicago.  we rented a lil apartment in nw.  really, this is exciting.  there are boxes everywhere in the apartment.  used furniture.  random half finished projects milling about on the carpet.  i am in love with our lil place.  and the new yorker just published an article on obama and his chicago political style back in the day.  check it out.  i learned alot about ‘chicago politics’ and how obama worked it.  reminds me that i could never have been a politician.  even though i had dreams of it.  i have a heart.

it is also why i never would have made a really good salesperson.  i always want to give someone what they need.  and not what i want.  but god, this is the fascinatingly corrupt and realpolitick city in which i live.  this is power politics in the 21st century.

so if anyone in chicago who is cool is looking for someone else who is cool, hit me up.  we could be cool together.

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what…mexico has a monkey-boy too?

July 10, 2008 at 4:42 pm (anti-racism, chiapas)

yep.  and wal-mart has decided to honor the racist comic books about a little monkey boy named: negro.  of course mexico does…no matter how many times mexicans in chiapas tried to convince me that there was no racism in mexico…i knew differently…

sometimes you can just feel it in the air…as boys are yelling negra to you from passing cars…

Though it seems clear that a comic book featuring a “Negro” monkey-boy is offensive, Mexican dignitaries think otherwise. Not only have they defended the country’s love for the comic book figure, they also issued a stamp in commemoration of Memin Pinguin in 2005. To the critics from the North, they say, because Americans don’t understand the culture, they have no right to object to the character.

I beg to differ. In the 1950s and ’60s, when the U.S. made headlines for its Jim Crow policies, dignitaries from a range of countries spoke out about segregation, refusing to kowtow to the notion that Jim Crow was simply the Southern (American) way of life, a way of life they couldn’t grasp. The same went for our “peculiar institution” of slavery. And the same goes for Memim Pinguin.

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transnational feminism

July 8, 2008 at 11:04 pm (anti-oppression, anti-racism, anti-sexism, women of color)

tanglad writes about the womens desk….

The book Scattered Hegemonies: Postmodernity and Transnational Feminist Practices by Inderpal Grewal and Caren Kaplan has helped me tremendously in focusing my feminism. I don’t worry about what the authors term as “a theory of hegemonic oppression under a unified category of gender.” Instead, as an activist interested in the gendered and racialized foundations of globalization, I’ve adopted the framework of transnational feminism, which:

must also find intersections and common ground; but they will not be utopian or necessarily comfortable alliances. New terms are needed to express the possibilities for links and affiliations, as well as differences among women who inhabit different locations. Transnational feminist activism is one possibility. (Kaplan, page 116, emphasis mine)’

i am really glad to have found this term: transnational feminism.  because this is part of the vision revolution of the lilies.  the theoretical part.  how exciting…i love relevant theory.

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revolutionary motherhood exclamation points

June 25, 2008 at 8:59 pm (Uncategorized)

so the REVOLUTIONARY MOTHERHOOD publication is available!  yay!

get your copy today!

suggested 7 dollar donation!

exclamation points!

contact maia!


loving y’all

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why we must support cynthia mc kinney

June 25, 2008 at 6:37 pm (anti-oppression, anti-racism, middle east, women of color)

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The Obama Nomination and Why We Must Support
Cynthia McKinney’s Power to the People Campaign
Ten days ago, Sister Cynthia McKinney, presidential candidate of the Power to the People campaign, issued a statement on the imminent nomination of Barack Obama as the presidential candidate of the Democratic Party.
In this statement, Sister McKinney noted that the Obama nomination was not business-as-usual in the United States, nor was it the result expected by the ruling class and its pundits. Hillary Clinton believed that she was the anointed candidate, and everything indicated she would be the party’s standard-bearer in November 2008. She had the corporate funding, the “leadership experience,” and the full backing of the central leaders of the Democratic Party.
Obama was being groomed by the Democratic Party elders for the future, perhaps for a 2012 or 2016 presidential nomination. For now, the best he could hope for would be a prominent spot in a Clinton cabinet — to help put out some of the political fires at home and abroad resulting from the rapacious policies of U.S. imperialism.
But Clinton’s “leadership” message faltered, and Obama’s message of “change” caught on like wildfire, especially among young voters and African Americans of all ages. After Super Tuesday, when Clinton expected that the nomination would be pretty much in the bag, her campaign was in shock. They did not anticipate the Obama-mania that was sweeping parts of the country.
The Obama phenomenon, of course, was not a mass movement with a conscious understanding of its aims; rather it was (and remains) a strictly electoral phenomenon with an amorphous concept that things cannot remain as they are. Obama was viewed as the best possible champion of “change” among the bunch of candidates put forward by the twin parties of the bosses. But the Obama phenomenon shook the Democratic Party and forced the commanding heights of that party to adjust their strategy.
Provocation and Containment
The first reaction by the central party leaders, with the help of a compliant media, was a staged provocation aimed at putting Clinton back in the saddle. (The biggest staging, of course, was the ABC TV candidates’ “debate,” where both TV anchors did their absolute best to “nail” Obama.) This involved featuring — and distorting — the declarations of the Rev. Jeremiah Wright, and forcing Obama either to back his pastor or reject him, with the hope that in either case there would be a “white backlash” against Obama.
This provocation did not produce the desired results, however. Clinton was not able to get enough of the backlash to give her a resounding lead in Indiana, or a draw in South Carolina. Her campaign had one bite at that apple and failed. The momentum for Obama — reflecting the deep aspiration for change in this country — was too great to stop.
The next reaction by the party hierarchy (and by the summits of the white ruling class in this country) was to accept Obama while ensuring that he would be totally pliable — that is, totally willing and able to carry out, unencumbered, the policy imperatives of U.S. imperialism in the aftermath of the reckless, cowboy politics of the Bush-Cheney cabal, politics that have undermined the image of U.S. imperialism worldwide and shaken the stability of the world capitalist system as a whole.
This tactical shift by the leading circles of U.S. finance capital requires, for example, pressing for a Hamilton-Baker Pan “solution” in the Middle East (diplomatic overtures to share more widely the load of occupation and containment, plus permanent U.S. bases and threats of military attacks, including nuclear attacks) and “neo-corporatist” solutions to co-opt the unions and movements of resistance into accepting the bitter pills of “free trade” and privatization in the name of a “New World Governance.” (A separate article is required to explain this orientation in greater depth.)
This meant pressing Obama to distance himself more and more from his Black base and to repudiate — perhaps not so much in his rhetoric but in the formulation of his concrete policy planks — anything that could lead to real change, anything that could put into question global capital’s quest to resolve its growing economic and financial crisis on the backs of working people and all the oppressed worldwide.
Hence, in the two weeks since Clinton stepped down as a presidential candidate, Obama has willingly and faithfully made a marked shift to the right, to assure the corporate paymasters of the Democratic and Republican parties that he will be a loyal servant of their interests.
The list is getting longer by the day. Here are a few examples:
* Obama “out-Bushed” John McCain in his speech at the national gathering of the American Israeli Public Affairs Committee (AIPAC), going so far as to claim that Jerusalem must remain an Israel city. His endorsement of the Israeli state and its Zionist-expansionist policies was unabashed … and unqualified.
* Speaking to right-wing Cuban exiles in Miami, Obama pledged to maintain the criminal embargo against Cuba. He also backed the illegal incursion of Colombian troops into Ecuador (troops sent in at the behest of the Bush administration), in violation of that country’s sovereignty, in the name of the “war on terrorism,” thereby sending a signal throughout the region that U.S. interventionism would remain alive and well under an Obama administration.
* Speaking at a conservative Black church in Chicago (thereby consummating his break with the Rev. Wright and his former church), Obama echoed all the rightwing’s racist attacks against Black men, to the point of referring to them as “boys,” without even bothering to provide any policy alternatives to the growing plight of Black America that has resulted in the increased criminalization/incarceration of Black men.
* Speaking to a panel of economists quoted in the June 17 Wall Street Journal, Obama said that he was “seriously considering backing a reduction in corporate tax rates.” (Obama has called on top pro-corporate advisers, beginning with Robert E. Rubin, to head up his economics team, which alarmed John Sweeney of the AFL-CIO.)
* Speaking to military officials in Washington, Obama did not rule out a military running mate and noted that “perhaps it may not be possible to withdraw U.S. troops from Iraq in the time frame I had initially envisioned.” (Washington Post, June 12)
An Independent Campaign Addressed to the Working Class Majority, to All the Oppressed
In her June 7 statement on the Obama nomination and in subsequent articles, Cynthia McKinney has sought to open a dialogue with the millions of people who still have illusions in Barack Obama and who will likely vote for him.
McKinney noted that the deep aspiration for change among the American people is what accounted for Obama’s surge in the primaries, and she went on to outline the platform planks that need to be implemented by the next president of the United States so that this long-awaited change can become a reality, and not remain an illusion. These are planks culled from the Draft Manifesto of the National Organizing Committee of the Reconstruction Party, a platform to which she contributed significantly. [See the June 7 statement on her website, http://www.runcynthiarun.org, for the full list of platform planks highlighted in this dialogue.]
McKinney did not say to the millions of Black people who celebrated Obama’s victory in the primaries as their own victory, despite his rotten political positions: “Take my word for it, Barack Obama is a sell-out and will only betray your interests.” There would be no dialogue possible on this basis, no way to help them shed their illusions in Obama and take steps toward breaking with the Democratic Party to support her Power to the People campaign.
Rather, she enjoined both Obama and his supporters nationwide to embrace the policy initiatives proposed in the Draft Manifesto because this is what millions of Americans expect — and need — from any candidate, especially a Black candidate, who aspires to the presidency and claims to represent “change.” But McKinney also made it clear that she was not forfeiting her own independent campaign in order to become an “advisor” of sorts to Obama. Quite the contrary. “Our platform,” McKinney stated in her latest fund appeal, “is the only one that genuinely addresses the needs and aspirations for real change that have been expressed by voters nationwide.”
Her challenge to Obama was unequivocal: If Obama were to support publicly some of the most important platform planks for change contained in this Draft Manifesto — and if he were to pledge publicly to take steps toward putting these planks into practice once elected — he would obtain, without a doubt, the overwhelming support of the American people.
But if Obama were not to support these specific platform planks, if he were not to pledge to begin implementing them once in office, Sister McKinney could not accept a situation where these vital policy issues were removed from the discussion table in the months leading up to the November 2008 presidential election.

“The message of our campaign is necessary now, more than ever,” McKinney insisted in her fund appeal. “Congress is on the verge of caving in on more funding for the occupations of Iraq and Afghanistan; our country bombs Somalia and Pakistan with impunity and none of the major party contenders mentions it; the American people are losing their homes at a record pace, Congress is yet to offer a solution; and our country is even more mired in debt.”
This is the language of a genuinely independent campaign addressed to the millions of people in this country who are longing for a change and who are hoping against hope that Obama can be the vehicle for that change. It is the language of an independent campaign aimed at winning the working class majority and all the oppressed, beginning with the masses of Black people in this country, away from the Democratic Party to the banner of independent politics and Power to the People — to the banner of the Reconstruction Party.
Help Sister McKinney Qualify for Federal Matching Funds!

As a socialist and advocate of a clean break with the Democratic Party, it is clear to me — just as it is clear to a growing wing of the Black Liberation Movement — that Obama is not about to embrace any of the platform planks contained in the Draft Manifesto for a Reconstruction Party. In fact, Obama is moving at an astounding speed in the opposite direction in his quest to be the best possible representative of U.S. corporate interests. This is the name of the game in the Democratic Party.

This is why the Power of the People presidential campaign of Cynthia McKinney is so crucial today, why it must be supported by all politically conscious activists across the country.

Glen Ford, executive editor of the Black Agenda Report, put it best when he wrote in an article posted earlier today that, “There is a presidential candidate who is Black, a proven progressive, a person of courage and unchallenged integrity. Cynthia McKinney, running on a Power to the People platform for the Green Party nomination, wants to rebuild a real movement. Peace and racial and social justice cannot be achieved absent a popular movement, which in the United States must be led by African Americans.”
But support for Sister McKinney’s Power to the People cannot remain passive. Her campaign needs funds urgently. In her latest fund appeal she wrote:
“My campaign is not funded by the military-industrial-financial-media complex, nor the energy, pharmaceutical or other corporate interests that bankroll the parties of war: the Democrats and Republicans. I can only count on you, the people who produce the wealth in this country, to finance my campaign.
“I need your support to get out the political message of our Power to the People campaign to voters all across the country. …
“With your help, we can achieve our goal of raising the $100,000 in 20 states needed to obtain the federal matching funds. Please go to our website today (http://www.runcynthiarun.org) and make as generous a donation as you can. Then send all your friends, coworkers, and neighbors to this site, asking that they match or exceed your donation.  I do believe in the power of the people.
“Please help me put this first campaign milestone behind us, so we can get the Power to the People campaign on every ballot possible nationwide — so that we can provide a genuine alternative to the No Impeachment, War Parties and their candidates. Our communities deserve so much more and the Power to the People campaign is ready to deliver.  Your donation now will help us deliver with an impact.  Thank you in advance for your contribution to this effort.”
Can you make a contribution today to this fund?

— San Francisco, June 18, 2008


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paying attention

June 24, 2008 at 7:05 pm (anti-racism) ()

so right now we are in chicago after spending a couple of weeks in northern va.  being in chicago is strange after all this time.  so much of it i associate with the fucked up organization: cpt.  i dont write about them much because i dont like to dwell on the past or on fucked up shit, but that org is based in chicago and i spent alot of my time in chicago the past few years dealing with them.

cpt stands for christian peacemaker teams.

yes, i once belonged to an organization with such a dorky name.

so why the hell am i writing about them now?  well, a few months ago they invited me to apply for the ‘antiracism consultant’ position for cpt.  which i foolishly did.  and then they rudely abruptly told me that i was not ‘independent and objective’ enough to be the consultant.  i am posting the rejecting letter here:

From: Sylvia Morrison <sylviam@cpt.org>
To: mai’a <primitivedragonfly@yahoo.com>
Cc: carolr@cpt.org; sylviam@teams.cpt.org
Sent: Wednesday, February 27, 2008 10:02:26 PM
Subject: Re: Undoing Racism Consultant

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Maia Williams Carpenter

San Cristóbal de las Casas, Chiapas, MX

February 22, 2008

Dear Ms. Williams Carpenter:

Thank you for your interest in serving Christian Peacemaker Teams, again, this time as an anti-racism consultant. We greatly appreciate your interest and commitment to undoing racism wherever possible.

It is our top priority to select an independent, objective consulting team who best matches the skills and experience required to guide CPT in an extensive audit, strategic planning and practice transformation so that we can be best equipped to undo our organization’s internal racism. While we were impressed with your breadth of experience and unwavering commitment to peacemaking, after careful consideration by our committee we have decided to pursue other options for this contractual position.

We appreciate your interest in seeing CPT better reflect the reign of God, and we pray God’s best for you in your endeavors.


Hiring Committee


frankly, i have no interest in the ‘reign of god’ or whatever other hocus pocus that they conjure.  and they did not hire anyone else.  they have just kept looking.  for 6 months.  ya know how anti-racism takes a long time when you are looking for the easy way out.

a friend asked me if i thought that white orgs can change a few weeks ago as she was trying not to discuss the fact that she belongs to this piece of shite org.

if i had been accepted, this article would have been a great inspiration: raising minority graduation rates

to quote: “If there is a single factor that seems to distinguish colleges and universities that have truly made a difference on behalf of minority students, it is attention,” Carey says. “Successful colleges pay attention to graduation rates. They monitor year-to-year change, study the impact of different interventions on student outcomes, break down the numbers among different student populations, and continuously ask themselves how they could improve. Essentially, they apply the academic values of empiricism and deep inquiry to themselves.”

crazy, huh?

it doesnt require independence or objectivity

it requires attention and deep inquiry

and it is possible.

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