things i am thinking about

September 17, 2006 at 8:18 am (anti-oppression, anti-sexism, middle east, Uncategorized, women of color)

1. the black witch:  alice walker’s description in the temple of my familiar of africans, european witches, and talking to animals.   i am going to be a mother soon.  and the classic madonna vision of motherhood, the archetype of unconditional, nurturing, feminine,  vessel-like love i s not the  primary experience for me of pregnancy.  at least for this first trimester i feel more like the black withc…witch…the black witch who resides deep into the woods out of the mainstream grasp of the inquisition.  my hair is nappy and wild.  i am the color of autumnal bsark/bark .  i am that black witch.  that mal…that black witch mother

2. arab slave traders.  and their african slaves.  the arab slave traders took their slaves from east africa.  swahili is one of the primary languages of east africa. swahili is 60 percent of bantu words and grammatical structures and 40 percent arabic words and structures.  i have been told i looked east african when i was there last year.  the human family is complicated…such a beautiful horrific heartbreaking gothic history.

3. spinning babies.  now i can feel uterine muscles holding a sac of water with a small mammal inside.  maybe like a mini-dolphin or whale.  and i can move the baby.  pregnancy is big fascinating deal.

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2 Comments

  1. rabfish said,

    so beautifully written.

    beauty and pain and wonderment.

    it feels like you have a wild spirit.

    (congratulations, btw)

  2. alucard said,

    i feel more like the black withc…witch…the black witch who resides deep into the woods out of the mainstream grasp of the inquisition. my hair is nappy and wild. i am the color of autumnal bsark/bark .

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